Showing posts with label Felice Casorati. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Felice Casorati. Show all posts

Saturday, February 26, 2011

uncompleted self


"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." Anais Nin


he forbade her naked
by any light form -insisted she bath
behind - locked doors
marrying her under (his) pretense
of prudence; modest model of
mother,
teacher, an Aunt Fay-

his upbringing
a boiled materfamilias porridge
without recovery - or seasoning salt
and a
mistaken
mythical encounter with a teen virgin

her agreeable
sentiments -lead to an easy
incarceration
and commitment
to long sleeve nightgowns

yet, in clock-time....

she sought exposure
on a deeper level -began
reading "House of Incest"
by Anais Nin - quoting it repeatedly
through her mind "... looked with anonymous vision
upon my uncompleted self" 

the decision came - but
to inhale independence - is not
exhaling it, so
she saved it for a moment when
guaranteed freedom
of  violation, of reprisal or unwanted discourse

left her penned words
sealed with tea and evening verse
retired to bath and book
with quote and question - "..uncompleted self?"

he retired to chair
retired to tea...eyed the note addressed..
Husband - opening, began to read

My Husband

In my faithfulness I have began
to feel a bit uncompleted as of late - and
after much thought have reached a
life changing decision - I have started
proceedings to study the
French Culinary Arts - and will
soon be adding basil, thyme and white pepper
to dinner meals - followed by
saffron and cheyenne.  This will happen
with or without your blessings

Your Dearest Wife

Inhaling - he headed
for the wine
mouthing - "I knew I shouldn't have taken her out to dinner
for our Anniversary; how will I ever
break this to Mother.?

bkmackenzie
copyrighted 2011

painting by Felice Casorati: titled Le Signorine -1912